I’m not quite a California resident but I’m here. I’ve made it and I’m far behind writing down my memories. They’ve come too fast to process.
I had thought and stressed up until this point. Now I want to do it all at once. I want to be involved and part of the community right now. But I can’t. I can’t learn and new job and figure all this out at the same time. I can’t find a boy, hobbies, friends, language classes, a banjo when I can’t even figure out how to register my car.
The drive out was marvelous. No mother daughter epiphanies or fights just a deep appreciation of my home, family and country. I think Mom needed it even more than I did. All I can sincerely hope is that this will influence a change in lifestyle.
The polyamorous roommate is my favorite thus far.
I picked up my first hitch-hiker and I fell in love with him. Wandering for lighthouses. Bummed to only get into columbia for grad school in architecture. Insight and love from an eastern european. What is fate? Are people really put in your path?
After all this terrible stress…I feel confident for the first time in my decision. I LOVE the job and the people. I haven’t been around people like this since I’ve traveled…and even traveling I didn’t click like this immediately this round. Now I need to find balance in life.I need to budget and sort out a way to live without stressing about money. I love walking around campus during my lunch break. I love being so close to everything. Not sure about the location of my house but I can walk easily and my room is BEAUTIFUL.
Fourth of July by the Lake. Funny guys hitting on us. “surfer change” “rugby thighs”
I WANT A HOME AT LAKE TAHOE. Dad and I almost died on the “flume” trail mountain bike ride.
PRIDE with Jo. Need to pre game and dress up next time.
For the first time in a long time I have a schedule and a plan. This makes me so so comfortable and reassured. I feel more at peace at this moment in a place where I’ve never been than I’ve felt in a long time.
Avi called and I haven’t thought about him since.
Joy is royally pissing me off and I do not want to talk to her anymore while she is in India. I can’t articulate reasons why really but she is irritating. I’m not irritated with Kate for not communicating. But Joy…wooosh I can’t listen to it. I should be supportive but Im not. I wish I hadn’t suggested she go. She’s not grateful. She’s not specific but the work I did was basically useless. I hope the work she is doing is useless too.